This is Robert Llewellyn's personal blog. The views contained in here are mine alone and do not reflect the views or opinions of anyone else I work with or for. Just thought I ought to make that clear.

Thursday
Jun132013

FitBit

For the last couple of years I've been using a simple, free app on my phone called Pedometer to keep a rough record of how far I walk.
I set myself a goal of 60 miles a month and was always happy when I got over 100 miles.
As of this afternoon I've started using a fitbit One. Just taken the dogs out for their afternoon stroll, I did a mere 2.09 miles, 4434 paces, and burned a meagre 1769 calories.
Interestingly it thinks I climbed 17 flights of stairs which gives some indication of the hilly nature of my surroundings.


The best bit for me is the FitBit dashboard. If you like walking and data, what's not to love. I'm already obsessing about super long walks I could do. 
Can I generate graphs? Can I have full colour bar charts on the wall of my office? Will I loose the FitBit in 3 days time? It's tiny!

Saturday
Jun082013

The Hermit Lure

A few years ago I listened to a man in his late 50’s moan on like a drain, he blurted every conceivable ignorant cliché about young people, new technology and changes in society he didn’t like or understand. He was so dull and annoying I made a promise to myself.

It was the era of ‘Grumpy Old Men’ on the telly and I already had my foot on the threshold of the closing chapters of life.

‘If you ever start moaning on like that,’ I said to myself, ‘just jump off a fucking cliff.’

There are days when the prospect of being a mad, white haired old hermit who lives in a shack in the woods with a dog, an aluminium pan and a straw mattress is very alluring. No net connection, no phone, no hassle. Just sit outside the creaky front door in the morning with a grubby cup of tea, smoke a pipe and ignore the nightmare unfolding in the real world.

But I can’t do that, I was and indeed still am determined to be positive, to be as open minded as possible, happy to embrace change and welcome innovation, remain intrigued and enthusiastic about the possibilities that are emerging for a different, fairer, more open less brutally short sighted human society.

As you may have surmised, it’s really hard work to keep that up.

It’s so much easier to moan about governments and big multi nationals as we hear news about the total surveillance system anyone who’s ever used the internet or the phone system is constantly under.

Some grumpy old bloke saying ‘See, it’s Big Brother, I told you, they’re listening to everything we say or do. I told you it was all shit!’

Can I say I’m not in the least bit surprised, concerned yes, but not surprisecd.

Right from the start of the internet it’s been clear to me that because we’re using wires, cables and servers belonging to other people, what ever we do on the internet, someone is obviously going to know about it and have records of it.

I have always been aware that anything, and I mean an-y-thing I do on the internet is in the public domain.

Personally I don’t give a stuff who sees it. If someone has records of every web search, e-mail and tweet I’ve ever sent, every comment I’ve made on a blog post, every rant I’ve done on YouTube, so what? How bloody boring would it be to comb through that mess and I am just one of several billion people doing the same thing every day.

If I’ve got an actual secret, a bit of gossip or knowledge that could be hurtful to my family or someone I care about, the very last place I would ever place that information was on the internet. I’m lucky enough to be blessed with a goldfish memory, 9 times out of 10 when I am furnished with something resembling a secret I’ve forgotten about it 5 minutes later.

The revelations about the NSA, GCHQ down the road from me in Cheltenham and every internet company we’ve ever heard of don’t make me grumpy or depressed mainly because they don’t surprise me.

GCHQ Cheltenham (image- Guardian)The investigative journalist Duncan Campbell revealed the existence of GCHQ way back in 1976, up until that point no one had ever mentioned its existence in public. Governments eavesdrop, they read mail, listen to phone calls, record our movements on CCTV. It’s certainly not new, it's obviously now on a bigger scale but it’s not new. However our ability to communicate across borders, languages and cultures is also on a bigger scale and that is new.

 This information doesn't make me want to be a grumpy old know-all, sitting alone at the end of the bar in a quiet pub saying, ‘yeah, I always knew the internet was shit but no one believed me, they believe me now, oh yes sir.’

These revelations might make me want to question the wisdom of spending all that money, time, resources and effort into storing and collating this truly mind numbing amount of information.

Is that really the best option? Since this vast data gathering exercise has been going on, and I’m talking way before the emergence of the internet, as we all know there have been hundreds of horrific attacks by crazed zealots, none of which have been stopped by data collection.

Sure, we don’t know about the bearded religious nutters who have been thwarted, I really hope there have been some success stories that the quite folks who work at GCHQ would love to tell us about, but it’s no panacea. Listening to what everyone is saying isn’t the solution, the way people are raised, the religious rubbish forced on children, the brutal cruelty of the free market, the obscene disparity of wealth and poverty may also have something to do with our troubles.

I’m not saying we shouldn’t be concerned, we should be aware that this information we freely offer is of immense value to the corporations who gather it and the governments who access it. Of course there should be official safeguards, people should be held to account, but while they do that, they will of course continue collecting everything, absolutely every keystroke we make…. just in case. Therefore I remain optimistic, we should all be aware that we are chatting in a public square, not a private room, a public square and there are people listening.

 

Wednesday
May292013

The Third Type

I have reached a stage in my life where admiring other peoples intelligence and ability to think through an idea now fills me with admiration and respect rather than silent resentment and feeling of inadequacy.  I’ve had the pleasure of meeting some people who anyone would put in the category of really bloody clever and their company is stimulating and humbling.

I no longer wish I was better informed or more able to formulate an idea than they are. I’m happy to absorb at least a smear of their wisdom simply by being in their presence.

I recently added someone to this list of bloody clever people when I heard the playwright Michael Frayne say “It’s always been said that there are two types of people, those who obey the rules and those who break them. But I think there’s third type, people who simply don’t understand the rules.’

When I heard him say that another small piece of the confused jigsaw of my life fell into place. I’ve never been keen on breaking rules, I haven’t wanted the attention that serious rule breaking brings with it but I have often simply failed to understand rules.

Michael Frayne was talking about his days at school, of course he went to a private British boarding school as did an uncanny percentage of the most successful people in my class blighted country of origin.

Frayne saw the boys who understood and obeyed the rules, and the bad lads who understood and broke the rules. Frayne just didn’t get the rules, they made no sense to him.

That is my life in a nutshell. At school I didn’t want to upset the teachers by breaking the rules, I don’t think I ever intentionally broke the rules as I could see no advantage in doing so, I simply didn’t understand why the rules existed.

From my earliest memories I have found rules confusing, sometimes frightening, sometimes obvious but more often than not, utterly baffling.

I don’t mean obvious written down laws, don’t murder people, don’t steal things or obvious rules asking you not to do something that would have a detrimental affect on others or the world around you. For example, a sign saying ‘Take your Litter Home’ doesn’t confuse me, I understand that and I don’t throw my litter down on the street. I don’t want to walk around a world that is knee deep in litter so I don’t throw it around. I don’t assume it is someone else’s job to pick up my rubbish. Rule easily understood, of course I worry about where the all the litter will end up after you’ve taken it home but that’s another issue.

It is more the behavioural rules I’m thinking of, the ones that change over time, cultural rules, gender rules, relationship rules, those are the ones that leave me in a mess of confusion.

Relationship rules, the things you are meant to understand when you embark on a sexual relationship, oh goodness me, I never understood those. I made such a mess of so many potentially life long, fulfilling relationships I can’t bare to recall them.

Marriage, I never really got that one. I must have grown up in a peculiar little time bubble as I have attended so few weddings. Young people I know now get married, when I was a little kid people got married but during the maybe 20 year period when my peers should have been getting married they never did. They shacked up, they had kids, the raised kids but they didn’t get married.

It seems far more young people do get married now, I know of loads, and they go on stag and hen nights. I’ve never, not once in my entire life been on a stag night. I wouldn’t know what to do.

I am married now but I’d already lived with my wife for 18 years and had two children by the time we got around to it. Thankfully my Mrs seems as incapable of understanding those types of rules as I am. Our kids understood, they were the ones who encouraged us.

A proper job. I’ve never understood how you get a proper job or what you’re meant to do with it when you’ve got one. I’ve been self-employed in one-way or another since I was 18. I’ve never had a salary, I’ve never had a paid holiday or a company pension plan. The nearest I’ve ever got to anything like that was a car park space with my name on when we were shooting Red Dwarf at Shepperton Studios. I was so proud of that I took pictures and tweeted them.

Marriage and proper jobs both require an understanding of rules. Unwritten rules, the rules of life. I want to point out that I don’t think the rules governing these concepts are in any way flawed, wrong or oppressive. Far from it, I admire people who understand them and live within their boundaries, life is so much easier if you follow them. Notice I said follow them, these aren’t legally enforced rules, you can’t really break them, you can either follow them or, if you are of a radical state of mind, refuse to follow them. Either of those options are admirable, it is the third state that maybe questionable, just simply not understanding why the rules are there or what they’re for. Just living your life outside such rules without anxiety because you didn’t know there were any rules. Maybe it’s not so bad, but I can see now that social rules are helpful. Living outside them is fraught with danger and pitfalls and I’ve fallen into just about every pit there is. There is one guideline I came across when I was a young man which at least gave me some clue as to how to behave. It is a quote from one Robert Allen Zimmerman, better known as Bob Dylan.

‘To live outside the law, you must be honest.’

Wednesday
May292013

21 years in the golden shire

I recently read an article in a local glossy estate agents magazine while I was waiting for fish and chips. I describe the magazine as such because at least half the pages are filled with details and wonderful photographs of desirable residencies in the Cotswold area. There was also an editorial piece in the front of the magazine which I could skim read with ease as it followed a very well trodden path.

It was a jocular account of the excesses and eccentricities of the nouveau-arriviste Cotswold family, swollen with cash from the sale of their multi million pound Notting Hill terraced house.

I also recently attended a funeral of a wonderful local woman who died far too young, a born and bred daughter of the Cotswolds. The gathering at the church was anything but unique, many races, ages and social groups had gathered to bid farewell to this popular woman. Basically normal people who live in the Cotswolds. Loads of them. Not one merchant banker, movie star or retired footballer among them.

The contrast was notable.

In the 21 years I’ve been living in the Cotswolds I will have read at least 21 articles written by erudite, observant and witty journalists who don’t live here who enjoy nothing more than describing wealthy residents of the golden shire with barbed insights and brand accurate put downs.

The portrait they paint is always snide, knowing and accurate, if you only inhabit the tiny, totally irrelevant little world these self-loathing scribes clearly do.

I’m sure you’ve come across such lazy appraisals.

‘The Cotswolds - full to the brim with movie stars, TV presenters and merchant bankers,’ they chortle. ‘Living in their delightful barn conversion with 2 Labradors, a Range Rover in the garage, son Tobias at Winchester and daughter Florette at CLC.’ (That’s Cheltenham Ladies College for you plebs)

Ha ha. So observant, so terribly witty.

‘I chat with the good lady wife Bruschetta.’ Continues the faceless hack. ‘as she leans on her 4 oven Aga and worries about the organic free range hare she has hanging on the pantry door.’

Oh guffaw, so accurate, so cutting and original. We know someone just like that.

‘She passes her days painting blanket boxes she sells at a charming little shop in Winchcombe while hubby embezzles billions in the City.’

Oooh, political and disruptive, such brave and knowing satire.

Well, let me paint another picture for you. The vast majority of residents of the Cotswolds, and I’m claiming around 98%, do not run merchant banks, don’t work in the TV business, don’t have an Aga or a Labrador, they don’t have Range Rovers or live in barn conversions. They have normal occupations with humble incomes and their kids go to the Cotswold comprehensive school in Bourton on the Water.

Some of them even vote Labour! Blimey, I know it’s hard to believe but they really do. They keep quiet about it obviously.

There are even actual farmers who live and work in the Cotswolds, they live in small houses and use their barns for, wait for it, storing hay and agricultural machinery. Oh, the dizzying shock!

There are quarry workers, Tesco delivery operatives, people who work in IT, in fact quite a lot of people who work in IT because GCHQ in Cheltenham needs a few of them. There are teachers, bakers, dry stone wallers, shop workers, retired people who aren’t that bothered about the colour of their wellingtons, there are people who work in insurance, local banking, pharmacists and builders.

Basically normal people who don’t get interviewed about their life style or taste because it’s probably not seen to be that entertaining.

‘Mary lives in a bungalow in Bourton on the Water, she has two sons, one works locally, the other is at University in Plymouth. Her husband Phil is a builder, running the company set up by his father. They’ve lived in the Cotswolds all their lives, as did their parents and grandparents. They don’t have an Aga or a Range Rover. Teri runs a catering company but when her children were younger, she was a child minder.’

Have you ever read about someone like that in a witty, cutting observational piece about the Cotswolds by the likes of AA Gill? No, don’t be so silly. As if. Much better to find a chinless red trouser wearing toff who represents 0.003% of the UK population and inflate their importance beyond all recognition.

Much safer.

In my 21 years of residence, I’ve always felt a bit uncomfortable about being one of the people these journos love having an annual go at. Yes, I do occasionally work in the TV industry, our house was never a barn but it does have an Aga. We have dogs, okay, not Labradors but one is a Lurcher which is, without question, a posho status symbol breed apparently.

However there are so many aspects of my clichéd existence that are never listed, my wife is an Australian, about as Cotswold wife as Edna Everidge, my daughter has ridden horses but is a vegetarian who doesn’t like hunting. My son lives in London because the Cotswolds are ‘so boring.’

We drive an electric car and we have solar panels on the roof. We are clichés of a type yet to be vilified by some bitter scribe who lives in Tufnell Park and thinks ‘global warming’ is a feminist plot.

The people in my village are kind, accepting of our eccentricities, non judgmental and charming. They live their lives quietly and are probably unaware of the frothing social put-downs so popular with such opinion pieces.

Tuesday
May142013

One of the many Gigs I Didn't Get.

Just managed to do a bit of data mining on some old files I found tucked in an old folder on an old hard drive in an old box under a pile of old papers.

The following extract is from a work diary I was keeping on my original Macintosh (an SE 2 20) I bought after working on Red Dwarf series 3 in 1989. 

I wrote the following on the 14th of December 1989.

Robin Driscoll and I had a meeting this morning with Rowan Atkinson after watching his half hour thingy and I'm supposed to write three ten minute ideas for him by mid January. Yeas, well, we shall see won't we. The ideas have to be visual, and definitely have a punch line. The characters name is Mr Bean, and in the ones I saw there were some very good car gags, the little red mini that always knocks something over when he parks it and occasionally drives a Reliant Robin into a ditch. 

That was it. I'd forgotten about the meeting and as you may have guessed by now my ideas were never used, hey ho.

I do know that Robin, who's a lovely chap and a brilliant comic actor in his own right went on to work with Rowan for many years and he helped create the Mr Bean we all know and love.